2020 Goals, Are We Still Doing This?

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I had 5 goals for 2020 and I honestly forgot what they were (oops). I think the pandemic just cancelled everything for 2020? That’s what we’re doing right? All joking aside, I thought it would be a good time to check in again since we’re now closer to the end of the year than the start, and see if I am tracking towards those goals or not, and maybe re-evaluate the goals I did set.

  1. Save money by becoming a more mindful consumer. Well, I can say I’m halfway tracking toward this. I am becoming a more mindful consumer as I’m learning more about sustainability and thrifting, but I haven’t stopped spending money. I have been saving money since I’ve been thrifting and not paying full price for new things, but in regards to saving 25% of my income, yeah, next question.
  2.  Read more. My goal was 30 books for the year and I am currently at 33 books and counting. I want to increase this goal to 60 books for 2020. Let’s go!
  3. Make Friends. Hah, no comment. I do have a new book club I’m joining that will be meeting this weekend. Doubt I’ll make any friends BUT I am trying and putting myself out there. Huzzah for some-ish-kind of effort!
  4. Make 5 difficult recipes. Hm, I haven’t actually ventured down to difficult recipes town since I roasted that chicken (its little cold body was so traumatizing to hold). I can try harder here. I’m thinking spaghetti or tiered cake from scratch. Any good recipes out there?
  5. Be Present. I removed social media apps from my phone for the month of June and I haven’t yet re-installed them. I do still have them on my iPad and I can easily access from my laptop as well, but I do feel like I’ve made strides here, choosing to do things during the weekend days, rather than lay around scrolling through all my feeds.

Is anyone still tracking their 2020 goals, or has everyone else written off this year due to the pandemic and starting new in 2021?

I think I’m planning on making Ina Garten’s Spaghetti next weekend, will keep you posted how that goes…

Sincerely,

Sara Ann

To my complete strangers-

I read a letter today that was addressed to high school grads who would be entering college. It read, “Ready or not! You are gonna meet people unlike anyone you’ve ever met before from places you have never been before and some of these complete strangers will become fast friends. One might just become your best friend.”

I was lucky to find two strangers. Two random people living a life parallel to mine for 18 years and I had no idea. But God brought us together because he knew we each had something to teach each other. Many things, dozen of things I have learned from you both. I certainly would not be who I am today, without both of you influencing my life.

I wish that we could forever be just a wall apart. I wish that you’ll always come into my room and plop down on my bed. I don’t know why you both like my bed so much, but I would let you take naps in it everyday and sleep in it every night if it meant we could still be together forever. I would never touch the thermostat again, leaving it forever at 86 degrees if we didn’t have to leave each other in five days. I don’t want to drink tea alone or watch the Kardashians alone. I want my two best friends right next to me.

What do I do without you next to me?

I kept reading the letter to the high school seniors, hoping the author told them the secret about the end of college. The secret to leaving these strangers. He didn’t mention it, I think, because you aren’t supposed to leave them. While they might not be right next to you, they will be with you forever in your heart.

You will be forever with me, in my heart. You’re part of who I am, the person I am today has pieces of you and you have pieces of me. We will forever be connected because of these pieces. And no matter where we go in life, these pieces from each other will always be with us, reminding us of one another. Then we’ll call, and we’ll write. We’ll make plans to visit. You can call me after a bad day and I’ll call you when I see a tabloid at the store with a new photo of Bruce.

And we’ll make it. Life is scary and exciting and terrifying and thrilling and it’s meant to be shared with people you love. With people who are forever in your heart. Life will go on and so will we.

Together or not, we’ll always be friends and I will forever cherish every moment we had in these last four years. I used to believe in that quote, “Don’t say goodbye, because goodbye means forever.” I don’t anymore. You see, I want to say goodbye because you know what comes after a goodbye? A hello, when you see each other again.

Lou you forever,

your fellow swqueeenior,

B.

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How do you protect the ones you love?

I wish I could make a cocoon to keep them safe,

or give them a soft blanket to wrap around themselves

Because the world has not yet made their hearts hard.

They’re still naive and see the world full of wonder and love.

Not like me, cynical and hard to love,

running away from feelings any chance I can.

They take chances, with their heart on their sleeve for the whole world to see.

I watch in awe, jealously, sorrow.

I know what’s coming for the unguarded heart.

How do you protect them, keep them safe, keep their hearts whole and untouched?

Like mine?